20 August, 2009

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I was hoping for you to read this.. ;

I know its been a while, and I know that you don’t give a fuck about how im feeling for you. That’s fine, I respect that. I just wanted to let you know that I really miss you.. And I know you moved on and everything but im still really stuggling.. \= I really don’t know why its so hard for me to let go. I’ve really let my self go ever since you left me.. I miss all tha comfort and everything, I guess I just really got used to it. I haven’t got through anything yet, but when highschool starts im hoping that I will. I can’t even accept tha fact that its over. My age, I don’t believe in falling in love, but I thought that I was in love with you when it was us. They’re just phases I guess. Im speechless and I really don’t know what to say… I won’t regret being with you tho, you made me very happy no doubt. And I appriciate everything you’ve gone through and did for me. At tha same time I hate you tho a lot.. I never thought that you’d walk away officially tho.. I guess I just got used to us getting back, but whatever happens happens.. Expect from tha unexpected homiieee. *

29 July, 2009

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’ things go by so fast.. ‘

YEAH , it really does . 2weeks ever since this happened so that means I’ve been crying myself to sleep for 2weeks now . Call me crazy , call me stupid , call me whatever I can care less. My feelings & im so sensitive.. I actually believe in tha saying ’ appriciate things while you have em cus when its gone that’s tha only time you’l notice it.. ’ its true except it was his lost , but he seems to not give a fuck at all . To be honest im affected , things has changed . Listen to what your momma says . They don’t want you being in a relationship this young cus they don’t wanna see you get hurt or at least go through something similar they went through when they were our age ,at least that’s why my mom doesn’t want me having one .. Emo much ? Uhh , you tell me . Ima tell you that I’ll be fine , it just takes time to heal. Nxggas are all tha same and expect from tha unexpected cus that’s what you will get . Everything happens real fast so enjoy it while it last . Can you say I was obssesed ? Yes , you can’t blame a girl for being in love and has gotten fucked up. He left her , in a position where she didn’t know what to do and how to get out. Time will tell . Im GRRREEAAAT tho . I’ve just been really lonely but ’ shawty don’t need no man as long as she got her friends ’ that’s a real saying right there. =) btw , just realize what your missing out on , what you left. Thanks asshole. Everything I’ve been through for you wasn’t worth it. TRU$T. Im goneeee .

“16 July, 2009

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I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not because I was talented or even beautiful, but because I had never belonged to anything or anyone else. ” - Marilyn Monroe.

16 July, 2009

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” YOU ” KILLED MY SUMMER >=[

You just let everything go like that, you don’t feel my pain cus i dont make you go through the things yu make me go through. FUCK EVERYTHING WE HAD, EVERYTHING WE’VE BEEN THROUGH. Im sick & tired of guys fcking handling girls like this. FUCK YOU NIGGA. who tha fck was here for you when no one was at ALL? ME , you even fucking told me. & this is CRAP FROM YOU i don’t fcking need this. thaanks a lot, thanks for not being here for me. you don’t deserve to be my boyfriend & i learned my lesson that’s why im FINALLY walking away.. i didn’t do this before because i have a lot of patience with you but since your tha one telling me all these BS/EXCUSES/LYING BEHIND MY BACK how will i know i can trust you again? I CAN’T .FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU 50000000000 billioon trillion million gazilliioooon times. after 1year & what 6 months? HA, woow. if you knew you felt like that you could’ve done it in tha first place. you don’t know how im feeling inside you don’t fucking know tha pain. you dont know how mad i am right now, but i can’t lie to you.. IM STILL REALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU…… BUT i wanna say thankyou to YOUR FAMILY for ALWAY’S being there for me no matter what happens, i shouldve listen to them when they told me to walk away…….. thaanks for fucking up this whole thing “WE” supposedly had… thanks…..